Between the Blinks

I blinked….that’s all I did, nothing special……just a blink.

And 10 years were GONE!

My baby who was so small and helpless is now a beautiful little girl, so curious about the world around her.

Wanting to try everything (except food) new! She wants to explore, to help others, to be something great!

And all I want her to do, is sit on my lap and let me hold her for just one minute longer, to whisper I love you and hear her sweet voice say it back to me.

I want to re-watch every moment of her life…to be able to see her learn to walk, hear her 1^st words again, to just be able to recapture her early years!

While I know that what I want is unattainable, I am realizing that it will happen again all too soon.

I will blink and she will be graduating high school, learning to drive, finding love, getting married, and having her own family.

It’s all just a Blink away!

I can’t change it, no matter how hard I try.

What I can change is what I do between the blinks! I can make memories that will last a life time. Memories that she will share with her children just like I share with her about my mom and dad. Memories filled with laughter and love. Memories filled with family dinners and game nights. Memories of spending time at our church as a family! Memories that remind her that no matter where she is she is loved.

That’s all I can do, it is my greatest responsibility, my calling, because I am a MOM :)

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