Its been a Monday of a Thursday.
Today is day 7 of sitting and keeping my leg elevated in an attempt to let it heal...let me tell you something, sitting around and doing nothing is not all it is cracked up to be. you could say it is downright BORING!
I mean, seriously how many Netflix shows can you watch without going stir crazy?
Turns out for me it's only FIVE!
Sitting also makes it hard for you not to take stock of everything around you...like the dust that seems to be waiving at you from your piano...I know it's saying " look at me, I'm just sitting here and you cant do anything about it."
I think it will be saying something different tomorrow when cranking up "The Greatest Showman" soundtrack and give my daughter a dust rag and set her loose in the living room!
Does dust talk??
I think the issue is that I can't stand idleness...I have become so accustomed to being busy all the time, that I can't stand being still. the thought of doing nothing actually overwhelms me.
and yet, REST is good for the soul.
It says so in the bible.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest.
My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
and Jeremiah 6:16
Thus says the LORD:”Stand by the roads, and look, and ask for the ancient paths, where the good way is; and walk in it, and find rest for your souls.
God WANTS us to find rest in Him. but how can we find rest, if everything around us is going at 100 miles an hour? If I cant see what is around me because I am running around like crazy, then maybe I need to slam on the brakes and just sit and be STILL.
This week has taught me that even if I am unable to be busy it's not all that bad. I am getting to spend extra time with my family and even if it is the last thing I want to be doing, I am learning how to be STILL.
Which surprisingly very hard for me to do.
for now I am going to focus on diving deeper into my bible reading, spend more time being silly with my daughter (she has made me laugh so hard this week), spend time working on my oil business, write more in my journal, and start chapter 11 of my book, and just rest. Rest my leg, rest my body, rest my brain, and rest my hurting heart.
Just Rest...which has been good for me, even if it has been hard. but it has also let me realize that I am blessed beyond measure.
I have a wonderful family, who loves me even if I am going crazy and I "may" whine every now and then.
They bring me cupcakes when I have had a bad day.
They keep me smiling even when all I want to do is cry.
They make it harder for me to have a pity party, for which I am thankful.
Being still has opened up my eyes as to all my family does for me. My hubby has become the cleaner, short order cook, chauffeur for my daughter and a human crutch for me :) he has helped me more then I think he knows, and it has made me LOVE him more.
So that's it for my Monday musings on today which is a Thursday.