Today is Heart rehab day in the Gregory household, which is why I am up at 5:30, popping Milk-less muffins into the oven. They are quick and easy to make, I can control what goes into them, and they will give my tired family something that they can grab and eat on the way.
Baking for me is an outlet, one I have had to curb since my hubby's heart attack. Gone are the days of Cinnamon rolls, cakes, special cookies, and loafs of homemade bread. Instead we have been eating more whole foods, and trying to watch everything that we bring into our home. It has been hard, and I wont lie, I have slipped up and failed. just the other day I thought, "one meal won't matter"...unfortunately everyone in my family started feeling icky after eating that one meal.
Its just not worth it.
For someone like me, who Loves to bake, and cook from scratch, who finds joy in making something that her family loves, it has been a struggle. One I have cried about, talked about in great length to my friends about, and suffered over.
I have LOVED to bake since I was a child, something that I have passed on to my daughter, and it seemed like something I identified with was being taken away from me. This morning as I got up early, I was so excited because I got to bake for my family. I did have to modify my recipe a little to make it healthier for my hubby, but I was still baking. And do you know what... it felt GREAT!!! I may not be able to bake every day, and have my family eat what I have lovingly made for them, unfortunately that season of our life has passed, but I can still on occasion find, or modify recipes that they can eat. I am always looking for low calorie, low carb, heart healthy recipes, and while it may take me a while to find some "Great" ones, I am slowly building up my recipe box. This family's adventure in baking is not over....its just been modified a little, and that's OK.