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My Heart

Wow...its been a bit since I have written a blog post. I have been mulling over a few ideas, but every time I sit down to write, my brain just turns off, which is kind of frustrating for someone who LOVES to write. Today, the same thing happened. I sat down ready to write about something I have been thinking about over the last few days, and the moment my hands touched the keyboard....I got nothing! So today, instead of writing something that is thought out and planned, I am just going to open up and let you see into my heart . As much as I would love to be the organized, calm mother and wife, I think I lean more toward the stressed out, over analyzing, forgetful mom/wife. I have made great strides in this area, mostly becasue I have been making myself use a daily/monthly planner, but.....if I forget to write something in it, then its not going to get done. My house is not the perfectly clean and managed home that I would love it to be. In fact, as I'm sitting here writi

Reminders

My Mom has been gone for three months....sometimes it feels like forever, and then there are times that it feels like just yesterday we were sitting in her room, holding her hand, and watching her take her last breath... This past week had been so hard, I'm not sure why, but I have been an emotional roller-coaster, one second I was laughing while watching  a movie with my family, and the next thing I know, I am balling my eyes out, because I know my parents would have been laughing at the movie too... I still wait for her to text me every night. I still pick up my phone to call her when I need someone to talk to. I still forget that she is gone. I still want to tell her how much I love her, just one more time......or how much she meant to me. I still long for one more hug, for her to squeeze me tight and tell me shes proud of me. I still want to see her dancing like crazy to Christmas music with Olivia, or hear her tell stories all in Pig Latin, while doing all the h

Throwing Out Todays Plan

I spent Saturday working on lessons plans for my daughter Olivia's schoolwork this week, and I was so excited to start implementing them today....I was finally on top of the coming weeks lessons, all her schoolwork was pulled and labeled, and put into individual folders....I was so ready to start school on Monday! My plans, that at 3am Sunday morning, were tossed out the window! Olivia had a horrible puking bug and I spent the rest of the early morning taking care of her and she was finally able to go to sleep around 8am. At this point, I would like to tell you that, my hubby was awesome....he cleaned the entire bathroom for me, I on the other hand RAN as fast as I could past the bathroom and almost didn't make it to the living room without getting sick! please tell me I am not the only mom, who cannot take care of their children's puke. I cant be the only one.....right? I wrote that all to say, that my plans ( that I was so EXCITED about)  were thrown out the win