We almost lost him...not once, but twice.
Its hard to even fathom living a life without my husband...and yet I have. when we first came home from the hospital I laid awake watching him sleep, scared that if I closed my eyes, he would be gone in the morning. I would stare at him, trying to memorize what he looked like...just in case his heart stopped.
Our daughter Olivia would hold her tears in until she just couldn't anymore, and then she would break. My heart hurt so much for her, because while I knew what I was going through, I knew it was different for her. This was the strongest man in her life, Her Nerf gun buddy, the one she watched Marvel movies with, went on daddy/daughter dates with, told dad jokes to with her "pun glasses" on, the one who prayed with her, was teaching her how she should be treated by others, taught her to stand up for herself and others even when it was hard to do....This was her Daddy, and the thought of losing him devastated her.
My husband is 38 years old, and has had TWO "widow maker" heart attacks, and while today may be his last day AT heart Rehab, it is not the last day of his rehab. He will be in "rehab" for the rest of his life, to ensure that he never has to go through this again.
We lived through this twice...and I'm not sure our hearts could take a third time.
So we made a plan...not really a plan, more like a goal for a healthier lifestyle. Our family is exercising together, eating better together, and hopefully getting healthier together.
Its not about changing our lifestyle, its about doing what needs to be done to ensure that we have a LIFE to share with each other.
Waiting is no longer an option. Its a NOW or NEVER moment, and our family has decided that we will embrace the hard road ahead of us, and make changes now so that when its time to walk Olivia down the aisle on her wedding day, she will be holding on to her daddy's arm.
Join us on our journey to health, we will be updating our victories and struggles in the weeks, months, and years to come.
Here's to the next chapter of "rehab" in our families life :)
Its hard to even fathom living a life without my husband...and yet I have. when we first came home from the hospital I laid awake watching him sleep, scared that if I closed my eyes, he would be gone in the morning. I would stare at him, trying to memorize what he looked like...just in case his heart stopped.
Our daughter Olivia would hold her tears in until she just couldn't anymore, and then she would break. My heart hurt so much for her, because while I knew what I was going through, I knew it was different for her. This was the strongest man in her life, Her Nerf gun buddy, the one she watched Marvel movies with, went on daddy/daughter dates with, told dad jokes to with her "pun glasses" on, the one who prayed with her, was teaching her how she should be treated by others, taught her to stand up for herself and others even when it was hard to do....This was her Daddy, and the thought of losing him devastated her.
My husband is 38 years old, and has had TWO "widow maker" heart attacks, and while today may be his last day AT heart Rehab, it is not the last day of his rehab. He will be in "rehab" for the rest of his life, to ensure that he never has to go through this again.
We lived through this twice...and I'm not sure our hearts could take a third time.
So we made a plan...not really a plan, more like a goal for a healthier lifestyle. Our family is exercising together, eating better together, and hopefully getting healthier together.
Its not about changing our lifestyle, its about doing what needs to be done to ensure that we have a LIFE to share with each other.
Waiting is no longer an option. Its a NOW or NEVER moment, and our family has decided that we will embrace the hard road ahead of us, and make changes now so that when its time to walk Olivia down the aisle on her wedding day, she will be holding on to her daddy's arm.
Join us on our journey to health, we will be updating our victories and struggles in the weeks, months, and years to come.
Here's to the next chapter of "rehab" in our families life :)
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