Sitting in the stillness.

Last night I stayed up late...OK it was only 11:30 but I thought I was big stuff making it past my 9pm bed time. I made myself stay awake, because I was going to get to sleep in for the 1st time in for what seemed like forever.

And then this morning comes around and my body decided that..Nope, you my friend are going to get up at the same time you usually get up...and you will not be able to fall back asleep!

Sometimes I wish we could just slap ourselves, and say behave...or go back to sleep at least.

Instead of kissing my half-asleep husband and daughter goodbye, I got to spend time this morning talking to my husband before he went to work.

Instead of grabbing a granola bar and eating it as I walked out the door, I got to have breakfast with my daughter.

I got to take time to really clean my home (anyone else Spring Cleaning?)

Sigh...I got to spend time in my home.

I am a homemaker at heart.

I love making our home clean for my family. I love having the laundry done, and the beds made, and food on the table when my hubby gets off work.

I love spending time just being quiet, and letting the stillness sink in.

I have been so busy, for so long, that I had forgotten how to just rest in the stillness around me. I have not practiced the art of taking time to just relax and be at peace. It use to be something I did every day.

Oh, how I have missed it.

Just being still, and quieting the clutter and chaos that is my mind.

I stopped making time for it when things got busy and hectic in our life, but now realize that I need it to be the best person that I can be.

A quiet and still mind, is so much better then a mind that is running from one thing to another trying to accomplish 50 million things at once.

Breathe, relax, listen.

Repeat.

As I sit here typing this, my daughter is snuggled up on the couch, resting and playing with her phone. My hubby is almost done with work, and I can hear him in the back room getting ready to shut everything down for the day, and my dog, who has not been far from me all day, is keeping my feet warm :)

I have prayed for this...

I have waited for this...

This is my calling... and God answered in His time.

I don't know how long this chapter of our life will be, but I am going to soak it all in, and make the best of the time I have at home now, for this is where my heart is.

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